friends?

Whats up with me having no friends?
I really miss having shay and alex. I feel like they are not even in my life anymore. Its really bumming me out. We used to do everything together. We used to hang out everyday. Its like ever since Alex moved we haven't really talked very much. and even though shay lives so close we never hang out and when we talk it seems awkward. I know people change and grow apart...but I just never thought that would happen to us. I have no friends anymore.It would really be nice to have someone to hangout with, I'm mean i dont work and caitlin is always so busy and shawn lives like 45 mins.from me so I cant really just jump in car and go see him so.. idk. Its weird, when i was with kevin i seemed to have more friends, and now nobody talks to me.... thats so fucking bullshit. Hes an asshole. why do those people care more about him than me. Its not fair, I'm as nice as I can be to everyone. Ive always tried to help my friends as much as I could in anyway they needed. I am a good friend. I dont care what anyone says. I know it And you know what, from now on if someone doesn't put an effort towards a friendship with me, fine. I dont need you. I have Shawn and hes truly all i need.He has always been there when i need him, even when we were not together. Also I have Caitlin and she is my sister, she will always be there. Even if shes busy, she will call me back when she can. She still tries. And Kelly. Shes my bestfriend. She always cares about whats going on in my life. And she gets so happy when she hears im Happy. Now thats a true friend.I really miss her more than anyone. dont get me wrong I miss shay, but if she wants to hang out she knows where to find me. and to all thoses people who were my friend just because of who i was dating....fuck you guys. I guess its not imoprtanat how many friends you have but its about how the ones you do have, and about how you feel about each other. So I may not have as many friends as some people, but the ones i do have Love me no matter what. And thats all that matters.