Rant.

Ok so I'm gonna rant so if you don't wanna hear it dont listen...because i need this. Well My family is really really annoying the shit out of me, they seriously still treat me like a fucking child. It is infuriating. I Cant go out and have a good time like a normal person of my age. I can not stand being told what i can and can not do. I am a fucking adult. I'm almost 20 years old. And my whole life pretty much Ive been able to do what ever the hell i want and now that I'm here its like they want to have there thumb on me at all times so they can know I'm "safe"....WE LIVE IN FUCKING ORANGE BEACH! There is practically no crime hear, and if there is its vandalism not murder or rape or anything that would affect me. I mean really whats gonna happen to me at the goddamn movies. Whats gonna happen to me if I stay out past 12am, is that when the boogie man comes out or something. Uhhhh. I mean don't get me wrong i appreciate them so much and i really am grateful for everything they are doing for me but i just miss a normal social life. Fuck, i wish me and Shawn could get a apartment soon. Its just so damn hard for me to get a job, and until i get a job i cant even start to save money. And i really hate living off my grandmother. I feel so bad all the time. I just wish there was something i could do. I m gonna try to talk to kiki, but she just as stubborn as mimi sometimes. I really have to figure out how i can make so fucking money so i can move out.